Monday, December 28, 2020

#Review - Wicked Saints by Emily A. Duncan #YA #Fantasy

Series: Something Dark and Holy (#1)
Format: Hardcover, 400 pages
Release Date: April 2, 2019
Publisher: Wednesday Books
Source: Publisher
Genre: Young Adult / Dark Fantasy

In this stunning Joan of Arc inspired debut, a peasant girl who can speak to the gods must find a way to work with a deadly adversary to turn the tide of the war and assassinate the mad king

When Nadya prays to the gods, they listen, and magic flows through her veins. For nearly a century the Kalyazi have been locked in a deadly holy war with Tranavian heretics, and her power is the only thing that is a match for the enemy’s blood magic. But when the Travanian High Prince, and his army invade the monastery she is hiding in, instead of saving her people, Nadya is forced to flee the only home she’s ever known, leaving it in flames behind her, and vengeance in her heart.

As night falls, she chooses to defy her gods and forge a dangerous alliance with a pair of refugees and their Tranavian blood mage leader, a beautiful, broken boy who deserted his homeland after witnessing his blood cult commit unthinkable monstrosities. The plan? Assassinate the king and stop the war.

But when they discover a nefarious conspiracy that goes beyond their two countries, everything Nadya believes is thrown into question, including her budding feelings for her new partner. Someone has been harvesting blood mages for a dark purpose, experimenting with combining Tranavian blood magic with the Kalyazi’s divine one. In order to save her people, Nadya must now decide whether to trust the High Prince – her country’s enemy – or the beautiful boy with powers that may ignite something far worse than the war they’re trying to end.

Wicked Saints, by Emily A. Duncan, is the first installment in the authors Something Dark and Holy series. The world of Wicked Saints is heavily inspired by Slavic cultures as well as a play on Joan of Arc. Gods and Magic play a prominent role in the story despite the story revolving around a century-old Holy War between Travania and Kalyazin. Duncan drops readers at the height of an invasion, with a God speaking cleric named Nadezhda Lapteva being punished for a prank gone wrong with her friend Kostya. Upon hearing encroaching cannons, Nadya is rushed away to safety by ordained priestess Anna Vadimovna to keep her out of the hands of the so-called Heretics.

“You could be exactly what these countries need to stop their fighting. Or you could rip them apart at the seams.”

Nadya, who was supposed to be a secret and remain a secret until her training was over, becomes an instant target for hostile Travanian invaders. Why would the Tranavians want to capture Nadya you ask? When your hated enemy has a someone who can speak with a pantheon of Gods and is temporarily given their powers, this person is considered dangerous and must be captured at all costs. Forced to team up with a band of misfits from another country, Parijahan, Rashid, as well as a heretical blood mage named Malachiasz Czechowicz, Nadya’s absolute loyalty to her Gods is challenged throughout the journey to infiltrate the enemy country and end this centuries-long war. 

This is where Serefin Meleski, Prince of Tranavia and a powerful Blood Mage comes in. Serefin is a heretic/blood mage who gets his power through bloodletting & spells. His army storms the monastery and is viewed as the main enemy throughout much of the book. As the General of the Army since he was 16, Serefin carries a heavy load on his shoulders. Catching Nadya would be the icing on the cake and a feather in his cap when it comes to finally getting the credit, he is due from his father who has kept him at arm’s length. Until his father demands that he return home in order to go through a match-making ceremony known as the Rawalyk to choose a bride who will have to survive brutal testing. Serefin had to do monstrous things during the war and, obviously, starting to drink was a good idea to shield himself from the horrors of war.

Malachiasz is The Darkling of this story, down to the ultra-powerful bad boy lover. He's also a former Vulture who said to be indestructible. Malachiasz is a boy/monster with questionable intentions. He intends to use Nadya to kill Serefin's father in an effort to end the war. Wicked Saints plays the enemies-to-lovers romance without any attempt at subversion. Malachiasz honestly raised my hackles by coming out of nowhere. He’s like an impossible vision who makes Nadya immediately buckle under his stare. She has issues with decision making. She’s never sure of the boy she likes. One moment she wants him and the next she thinks she made a mistake falling for him.

“We’re all monsters, Nadya,” Malachiasz said, his voice gaining a few tangled chords of chaos. “Some of us just hide it better than others.”

 

There’s another sect that readers should be aware of, Vultures.

They're closed off from the rest of their kingdom, living in the hollowed-out cut carcass of an ancient cathedral in Grazyk under the leadership of a king of their own, The Black Vulture. They seem to have an unhealthy relationship with Serefin’s father as well as a place where they experiment on any prisoner caught in the ongoing war. 

There are two types of magic introduced in this story:

Divine Magic: a type of magic gifted from the Gods to Mages known as Clerics who usually have a Divine Patron. Nadya’s patron is Marzenya Goddess of Magic and Sacrifice. It's a tangible kind of magic used through items such as Prayer Necklace Beads which is Nadya's main source of magic. In the story, Nadya speaks with no less than 20 different Gods/Goddesses. These Gods/Goddesses have a symbol on each of Nadya's beads and each give her a special affinity if she calls on to them.

Blood Magic: Serefin can summarize this type of magic through this passage from a book. This type of magic is exclusive to Tranavians who are known to have cut off their ties with their gods and their magic is considered heretical magic.

This story has plenty of interesting secondary characters like Ostyia and Kacper and the witch Pelageya who seems a bit on the demented side until you realize she’s the only one who has the finger on the pulse of what is happening under Serefin’s father. I am not one to shy away from dark fantasy novels and I won’t be stopping after reading this book, and this twisted ending.

 




1

NADEZHDA LAPTEVA


Death, magic, and winter. A bitter cycle that Marzenya spins with crimson threads around pale fingers. She is constant; she is unrelenting; she is eternal. She can grant any spell to those she has blessed, her reach is the fabric of magic itself.

—Codex of the Divine, 2:18

The calming echo of a holy chant filtered down from the sanctuary and into the cellars. It was late afternoon, just before Vespers, a time where psalms to the gods were given up in an effortless chorus.

Nadezhda Lapteva glared up at the mountain of potatoes threatening to avalanche down over the table. She twisted her knife hard against the one in her hand, narrowly missing skin as she curled the peel into a spiral.

“A cleric’s duty is important, Nadezhda,” she muttered, mimicking the dour tone of the monastery’s abbot. “You could change the tide of the war, Nadezhda. Now go wither in the cellars for the rest of your life, Nadezhda.”

The table was covered in potato peel spirals. She hadn’t anticipated losing her entire day to remedial labor, yet here she was.

“Did you hear that?” Konstantin acted like she hadn’t spoken. His paring knife hung limp in his fingers as he listened.

There was nothing but the service upstairs. If he was trying to distract her, it wasn’t going to work. “Is it our impending death by potato avalanche? I can’t hear it, but I’m certain it’s coming.”

She received a withering look in response. She waved her knife at him. “What could it possibly be? The Tranavians at our doorstep? They have seven thousand stairs to climb first. Perhaps it’s their High Prince and he’s finally decided to convert.”

She tried to be glib, but the idea of the High Prince anywhere near the monastery made her shiver. He was rumored to be an extremely powerful blood mage, one of the most terrifying in all of Tranavia, a land rife with heretics.

“Nadya,” Konstantin whispered, “I’m serious.”

Nadya stabbed her knife into yet another potato as she glanced at him. It was his fault they were down here. His pranks, conjured from a mixture of boredom and delirium after early morning prayers, had been innocent at first. Switching out the monastery’s incense with lemongrass, or snipping the sanctuary’s candlewicks. Minor offenses at best. Nothing to deserve death by potato.

Filling Father Alexei’s washing bowl with a red dye that looked like blood, though, that was what had done them in.

Blood wasn’t a thing to be made light of, not in these times.

Father Alexei’s rage didn’t end in the cellars. After they scaled Potato Mountain—if they scaled Potato Mountain—they still had hours’ worth of holy texts to copy in the scriptorium. Nadya’s hands were already cramping just thinking about it.

“Nadya.” Her knife slipped off course as Konstantin nudged her elbow.

“Damn it, Kostya.”

My perfect streak of fifty-four intact spirals, ruined, she thought mournfully. She wiped her hands on her tunic and glared at him.

His dark eyes were focused on the closed door that led upstairs. There was nothing but the—

Oh.

The potato slipped from her fingers, falling to the dusty floor. She hadn’t noticed when the service above had stopped. Kostya’s fingers dug into her sleeve but his touch felt distant.

This can’t be happening.

“Cannons,” she whispered, somehow making it more real by saying the word aloud. She shifted the grip on her knife, flipping it backward as if it were one of her thin-bladed voryens and not a half-dull kitchen blade.

Cannons were a sound every child of Kalyazin knew intimately. It was what they grew up with, their lullabies mixed with firing in the distance. War was their constant companion, and Kalyazi children knew to flee when they heard those cannons and tasted the iron tinge of magic in the air.

Cannons only meant one thing: blood magic. And blood magic meant Tranavians. For a century a holy war had raged between Kalyazin and Tranavia. Tranavians didn’t care that their blood magic profaned the gods. If they had their way, the gods’ touch would be eradicated from Kalyazin like it had been from Tranavia. But the war had never reached farther than the Kalyazin border. Until now. If Nadya could hear the cannons, that meant the war was slowly swallowing Kalyazin alive. Inch by bloody inch it was seeping into the heart of Nadya’s country and bringing death and destruction with it.

And there was only one reason why the Tranavians would attack a secluded monastery in the mountains.

The cellars shook and dirt rained down. Nadya looked at Kostya, whose gaze was flint-eyed but fearful. They were just acolytes with kitchen knives. What could they do if the soldiers came?

Nadya tugged at the prayer necklace around her neck; the smooth wooden beads felt cool against the pads of her fingers. There were alarms that would go off if the Tranavians breached the seven thousand stairs leading up to the monastery, but she had never heard them. Had hoped she never would.

Kostya grabbed her hand and shook his head slowly, his dark eyes solemn.

“Don’t do this, Nadya,” he said.

“If we are attacked, I will not hide,” she replied stubbornly.

“Even if it means a choice between saving this place and the entire kingdom?”

He grasped her arm again, and she let him drag her back into the cellars. His fear was justified. She had never been in real battle before, but she met his gaze defiantly. All she knew was this monastery, and if he thought she wasn’t going to fight for it, then he was mad. She would protect the only family she had; that was what she was trained for. He ran a hand over his close-cropped hair. He couldn’t stop her; they both knew it.

Nadya tugged out of Kostya’s grip. “What use am I if I run? What would be the point?”

He opened his mouth to protest but the cellar shook so hard Nadya wondered if they weren’t about to be buried alive. Dirt from the ceiling dusted her white-blond hair. In an instant, she was across the cellar and nearing the door up to the kitchens. If the bells were silent, that meant the enemy was still in the mountains. There was time—

Her hand touched the doorknob just as the bells began to toll. The sound felt familiar, as if it was nothing but another call to the sanctuary for prayer. Then she was jarred by the urgent screeching tone they took on, a cacophony of high-pitched bells. No time left. She yanked the door open, running the last few stairs up to the kitchens, Kostya at her heels. They crossed the garden—empty and dead from the bitter winter months—into the main complex.

Nadya had been told the protocol countless times. Move to the back of the chapel. Pray, because that was what she did best. The others would go to the gates to fight. She was to be protected. But it was all formality, the Tranavians would never make it this far into the country, all these plans were simply if the impossible happened.

Well, here is the impossible.

She shoved open the heavy doors that led behind the sanctuary, only managing to move them enough for Kostya and herself to slip through. The tolling of the bells pounded against her temples, painful with each heartbeat. They were made to pull everyone out of sleep at three in the morning for services. They did the job.

Someone slammed into her as she passed an adjoining hallway. Nadya whirled, kitchen blade poised.

“Saints, Nadya!” Anna Vadimovna pressed a hand to her heart. There was a venyiashk—a short sword—at her hip, and another, long, thin blade clutched in her hand.

“Can I have that?” Nadya reached for Anna’s dagger. Anna wordlessly handed it to her. It felt solid, not flimsy like the paring knife.

“You shouldn’t be here,” Anna said.

Kostya shot Nadya a pointed look. In the monastery’s hierarchy, Anna—as an ordained priestess—outranked Nadya. If Anna ordered her to go to the sanctuary, she would have no choice but to obey.

So I won’t give Anna the chance.

Nadya took off down the hall. “Have they breached the stairs?”

“They were close,” Anna called.

Close meant the very real likelihood that they would make it to the courtyard and find the Tranavians already there. Nadya pulled at her prayer necklace, her fingers catching across the ridged beads as she searched for the right one. Each wooden bead was carved with a symbol representing a god or goddess in the pantheon, twenty in all. She knew them by touch, knew exactly which bead to press to attune to a specific god.

Nadya once wished she could blend in with the other Kalyazi orphans at the monastery, but the truth was, for as long as she could remember, when she prayed the gods listened. Miracles happened, magic. It made her valuable. It made her dangerous.

She tugged her necklace until the bead she wanted was at the bottom. The sword symbol carved into it felt like a splinter against her thumb. She pressed it and sent up a prayer to Veceslav: the god of war and protection.

“Do you ever wonder what this would be like if you were fighting against people who also petitioned for my protection?” His voice was a warm summer breeze slipping up the back of her head.

Truly we are fortunate our enemies are heretics, she replied. Heretics who were winning the war.

Veceslav was always chatty, but right now Nadya needed help, not conversation.

I need some protection spells, please, she prayed.






#Review - Legacies: Van Helsing Academy by Stacey O'Neale #YA #Paranormal #Romance

Series: Supernatural Rehab # 1
Format: Kindle, 220 pages
Release Date: October 24, 2020
Publisher: Phoenix Reign Publishing
Source: Kindle Unlimited
Genre: Young Adult / Paranormal

Welcome to the Van Helsing Academy: a rehab facility for vampires, shifters, and witches, who don't like to follow the rules.

Against all odds, Mina Van Helsing survived the courthouse attack and revealed the rebel leader's secret identity. But the battle is far from won. The uprising continues to grow in numbers, while the tensions between the factions are at an all-time high. As Mina works to find a resolution, she learns that she is the new face of the Order, putting her life in imminent danger. A war is coming. And Mina knows that the only way to end the uprising is by capturing Cassius, no matter the cost.


Legacies: Van Helsing Academy, by author Stacey O'Neale, is the second book in the authors Supernatural Rehab trilogy. Perfect for fans of Vampire Academy by Richelle Mead, Hex Hall by Rachel Hawkins, and Mythos Academy by Jennifer Estep. This story picks up immediately after the events of Van Helsing Academy. Mina Van Helsing, the great, great granddaughter of Abraham Van Helsing who created the Order & Reapers, is back to square one after surviving an attack on the courthouse and having the High Council reject her appeal for a new trial.

The whole mess for Mina began when she disobeyed a direct order and a teammate ended up in a coma. Upon arrival back at Van Helsing Academy, Mina learns that she not only has to return to her classes but can resume going on missions when called upon by Damien. Thankfully for Mina, Damien’s team has chosen to forgive her rather than hold a major grudge that could get someone killed. On her first mission back, Mina finds that the Uprising vampires are spreading lies about the Covenant being destroyed by Reapers. Any Supernatural that has been punished for breaking the law, are ideal candidates for the Uprising.

Mina is driven to find Cassius and make him pay for his betrayal. Mina also learns from her allies the Queen B's, Sacha, Kiera, and Alexei, that the Uprising is approaching pack, and clan leaders, and witches to join them in destroying the Order and creating a new world order under someone who was supposed to be an ally of the Order. No spoilers. It seems they have also found a way into the Academy itself which makes you wonder who else at the school is involved with the Uprising.

But that's just the beginning of the trouble. Mina's roommate Kiera, a solo werewolf, is targeted by members of rival packs because she's friends with Mina. Mina's romance with Sacha is tested because Mina isn't one to run to anyone for help when she's capable of handling her own problems. Mina becomes an unwillingly becomes a voice of a revolution when she stands up in the middle of class urging witches, werewolves, and vampires to stand against the Uprising and not listen to the flood of disinformation. Thanks to a video of the speech going viral, Mina becomes Steel Rose, and a huge target is place on her head. Mina's only hope in defeating the Uprising is to counter them by building trust and dialogue among all races. 

Part of the story is also told from Cassius's point of view which gives readers an inside look into the Uprising and those responsible including its leader. Cassius wants Mina dead, but his father has other uses for her. His father’s goals for the world are so dangerous that anyone who stands against him, including humans, are cannon fodder. Cassius is a confusing character in that his hate of Mina drives him, but it’s directed in the wrong direction. His father’s anger over losing his heir, makes him reckless and dangerous. Will Cassius do the right thing when war reaches the grounds of Van Helsing? Read the book and find out! 

It is fair to say that I liked this book a whole lot better than the first installment. There is more action. There's a bit more romance. Mina's growth as a leader shines through, especially after she and her allies go to battle against the Uprising. The author is obviously a fan of the Hunger Games since she basically turns Mina into this series version of Katniss Everdeen the Mockingjay. This book obviously leads into the finale which is not shockingly called Steel Rose. 

 





Wednesday, December 23, 2020

#Review - An Inheritance of Ashes by Leah Bobet #YA #Fantasy

Series: Standalone
Format: Hardcover, 400 pages
Release Date: October 6, 2015
Publisher: Clarion Books
Source: Publisher
Genre: Young Adult / Fantasy

The strange war down south—with its rumors of gods and monsters—is over. And while sixteen-year-old Hallie and her sister wait to see who will return from the distant battlefield, they struggle to maintain their family farm.

When Hallie hires a veteran to help them, the war comes home in ways no one could have imagined, and soon Hallie is taking dangerous risks—and keeping desperate secrets. But even as she slowly learns more about the war and the men who fought it, ugly truths about Hallie’s own family are emerging. And while monsters and armies are converging on the small farm, the greatest threat to her home may be Hallie herself. 

 


Leah Bobet's An Inheritance of Ashes reads like a post-apocalyptic Wild West story. This book actually begins with a devastating scene in which primary character Halfrida (Hallie) Hoffman witnesses a fight between her father and her favorite uncle Matthias. In the aftermath, Matthias chooses to leave, leaving a hole in Hallie’s heart. 8 years later, 16-year-old Hallie is half owner of Roadstead Farm thanks to her father’s will. She works the farm with her older sister Marthe who is very pregnant. Marthe’s husband Thom went off to war 6 months ago but hasn’t returned.

Hallie is plodding along in the face of what seems like inevitable despair. Hallie and her sister fight to keep the farm out of the hands of others, including the Windstown Council which doesn’t like two women living alone. She’s in a dark place, estranged from her sister who nags at her constantly for a variety of different things. She’s still haunted by the abuse of her late father who has been gone 6 years, and longing for the return of her brother-in-law to calm the tension between sisters. She’s basically biding her time until the next bad thing happens.

Hallie encounters a veteran of the war named Heron. She chooses to give room and board so that he can be another hand to help her with things that haven’t been attended to in quite a while. Heron is a curious character in that he carries the alleged knife that was used to kill the Wicked God. He claims it’s just another broken piece of magic and worth nothing. However, it seems that everyone is looking for the knife as well as John Balsam who apparently disappeared without a trace. It also sees as though the Twisted Things are drawn to it.

Soon thereafter, Hallie encounters a Twisted thing bird in her bedroom window that burns her hand needing immediate attention. Twisted Things look a little like birds or lizards or both, except for the acid and flame and cobwebs and the fact that they leave a little surprise behind like the feather that is found in Hallie’s hand. These things were supposed to be gone with the Wicked God’s death, but they are increasingly showing up on Hallie’s farm and elsewhere. Heron’s presence on their farm seems to herald the return of the war that Hallie and her village believed to be over.

Later, her sister finds a strange message on rocks near water which leads to all sorts of curious questions as to who may have put them there. The messages lead to Hallie making a startling discovery and some shocking secrets about Heron, and the Wicked God as well as where Thom as been all this time. There are some interesting secondary characters like Nat and Tyler Blakely who grew up with Hallie but were separate after Hallie’s father died. There’s a minor romance between Hallie and Tyler who went to war as a private in the Lakeland’s Division and came home scarred for life.

The romance doesn’t drive this book nor take center stage. It happens when two people who grew up together finally decide to stop dancing around each other and being afraid of offending or saying the wrong thing. Hallie’s really only friends in this book are Tyler, and his sister Nat. But there is a bit of a cold shoulder feeling that Nat gives Hallie throughout the story and including the ending. I think it is fair to say that miscommunication between Hallie and Marthe is 99% of their problems. Hallie believes her sister hates her and in doing so, becomes reckless at times. They say that Pride is the deadliest of the seven sins and that’s so true when it comes to deciphering who is to blame for the relationship issues between the sisters.




ONE

The barley was in. The stubble of it lay bent-broke in the fields as far as the eye could see, rows of golden soldiers, endlessly falling, from the river to the blacktop road. On a clear evening, with the harvesting done, you could see both river and road from the farmhouse porch: every acre, lined in sunset light, of Roadstead Farm.

So I was the first to see him. Everyone claimed a sighting in the stories that grew up later: a dark man, with a dark walk, striding bravely through the dying grainfields. But it wasn’t like that. I was the first to see the stranger when he came to the lakelands, and he stumped up the road like a scarecrow stuffed with stones. Marthe’s chimney smoke drifted to meet him, a thin taste of home fires. He caught its scent, his head tilted into the breeze, and hesitated at the weathered signpost where our farm began.

It can’t be, I thought, breathless, and then he straightened—and strode up the gravel path to our door.

For a moment I forgot the argument Marthe and I had just had: every vicious thing I’d said to my sister. I leaned forward, fingers wrapped around the porch rail, and squinted at the silhouette ghosting through our fields: The fields Thom and I had planted together before the men marched off to war. The fields I’d harvested alone—and was still working alone, plowing them under for the winter, when I wasn’t having pointless, nasty arguments with Marthe over nothing more than a heel of bread.

No, I told myself. It was about more than the stupid bread.

It was about . . . everything.

I’d known right away that asking was a mistake. Marthe had been wrestling with the autumn canning since sunrise, as behind on our winter stores as I was on the woodpile, and the second the word bread came out of my mouth, her face fell into put-upon fatigue. And suddenly I couldn’t bear to hear her tell me for the thousandth time—like I was a slow child and not half owner of Roadstead Farm—“Hallie, I need you to try harder.”

One more chore before I could taste a bite of supper, because Thom was gone and the war had killed half our harvest. Because of the November wind outside, the woodpile that wouldn’t get us past January, the snarled hole in the chicken coop that let the foxes in. Every time she said it, I could see the disappointment in her eyes: self-centered, childish, useless Hallie. Hallie, not strong enough.

“I’m trying, okay?” I pleaded, exhausted, hungry, cold. Marthe stared down at me, sweat-smeared and impatient; no mud on her boots and no sympathy in her eyes. She doesn’t understand, I realized, and then it hit me: She doesn’t care.

“It’s easy for you to say,” I shouted, wild with hurt. “It’s not you out there, working yourself dead.”

Marthe stiffened. Put down her cheesecloth, slow. She didn’t say anything; she didn’t have to. She was just in the kitchen working herself dead, seven months round with Thom Clarlund’s child. The doorway stood deadly quiet between us, as wide as the wound of Thom’s missingness. And then my sister did something she never had in the six years since Papa’s funeral: she shut the door in my face.

I stared at that door a full minute before it sank in: You’ve finally gone too far.

It had been eight years since the fight that ended things between Papa and Uncle Matthias; eight years since my uncle went his lonely way. Marthe and I—at this rate we wouldn’t even make it to my seventeenth birthday.

But none of that—none of it—mattered if Thom was finally home.

The wind stirred my hair, stirred the edges of that ragged silhouette in the broken barley fields. Please, I thought, be Thom. Not some man two inches too tall who walked all wrong, who didn’t wave to me—

I let myself believe it for thirty delicious seconds before I let the truth in: It wasn’t Thom. Just another veteran coming up the road, with a family who was waiting and wouldn’t have to wait much longer. Just another stranger.

The man set down his pack five feet from the porch rail, in the soft gravel and dust. He was full-grown, but not long to it: twenty-three or four and long with muscle, his brown forearms three shades paler than Thom ever got. He huddled before me in a red-checked flannel work shirt worn threadbare, useless against the chill November breeze. My breath puffed out. It was plain what he wanted. He had a soldier’s sleevebuttons, and his boots were in ribbons.

“We’ve nothing to spare,” I muttered, too distracted to say it louder. He wasn’t Thom, Marthe was still furious, and I was still in trouble. I stared into the dirt at his feet: Please, please go away. “You might try the Masons down the road.”

He neglected to pick up his pack immediately, turn around, and never be seen again.

Instead, he took off his cap. There was a shock of black hair under it, pulled back in a cattleman’s tail. “Thank you,” he said, quiet for such a big-shouldered man, “but I’m actually hoping to hire on.”

I blinked. The barley was in. Anyone could see that.

“I’m quick with my fingers,” he kept on. He had an accent more suited to the wild country northward than our lakeland farmsteads and ruins. “And I don’t eat much.”

My hands tightened on the rail. “You’re come from the war.”

The man tucked his chin with a passable country respect.

“You by any chance pass a man on the road, shorter than you by a few inches?” I worked to keep my voice casual. “Twenty-seven, dark skin, brown eyes, name of Thomas Clarlund?”

The stranger pressed his lips together, a hair’s-width, no farther. “I’m afraid I’ve not passed any travelers in some weeks.”

A tiny shudder moved through me, from the rib cage down. I shut my eyes against it: against the empty road and the ruin I’d made of the farm Thom, Marthe, and I had built up together.

“We don’t take on help past harvest,” I said hollowly. His starved face emptied like a water bucket. All I could see inside it was some black-haired mother or sister pacing behind wood walls, weeks north, her door left unlatched past midnight in case he arrived before dawn. “Look, I can spare some apples. I’ll give you apples if you just go home.” Frustration beat hollow fists against my temples. Thom, if you’ve hired on somewhere—“Your people don’t know if you’re alive or dead. You can’t do that to them.”

His smile twisted like a scar. “Don’t worry,” he said crisply. “No one’s waiting for me to turn life normal again.”

I flinched. That wasn’t why I wanted Thom home. That wasn’t it at all.

Something in his eyes flinched back. That anti-smile faltered. “I’m sorry,” he said, humbler. “You’re being kind and I was just snide.”

I blinked. “Kind?” I’d done everything but run him off.

He lifted his chin and regarded me: a girl too sunburned to be pretty and too small to throw him bodily off the kitchen porch. “You looked at this”—and he gestured down, from that soft north country accent to tattered shirtsleeves and the reek of sweat—“and saw a man someone might wait for.”

I’d done everything but run him off. I hadn’t run him off. And for that—

No one had ever called me kind before.

“So if it’s too late for harvest,” he finished, oblivious to my surprise, “I’ll help however I can.”

I bit back the automatic response: I can do this, the ugly chorus of every fight Marthe and I ever had, with the ghosts of Papa and Uncle Matthias hovering over our shoulders. I can run this farm. I can earn my keep if you just give me a little more time. I had to, so Thom had somewhere to come home to. So Marthe and I could laugh again, could build pillow forts under the table like we did when I was young. So we could raise her almost-child together in our own house—a house where everybody knew the younger Hoffmann sister was still half owner of Roadstead Farm.

I looked down across the soft, gray fields, to the thick green of the changeable river that cradled us in its hand. Between them the cherry trees flung their branches stark against the sunset and the goats lay in their paddock, curled around each other to sleep. You could see every speck of Hoffmann land from this spot; on a clear night, you could see all the way to the stars. You could see the half-full woodpile; you could see the broken wagon wheel, sunk in mud, and one stranger, strong and grateful just for shelter—the kind who would just move on to the next town if Roadstead Farm blew away into dust.

If the man in front of me could help this farm work right, things might be good between Marthe and me again—even if he was two inches too tall to be Thom. And then it wouldn’t matter if Marthe didn’t understand me, because I’d never let her down again.

“You understand we can’t pay you,” I said.

“Room and board is all I’d ask.”

“Right, then.” I spun on my heel and stepped into the kitchen.

“I thought I told you to stay outside,” Marthe snapped. She was baking bread after all: the air was sweet and dusty with yeast, and the dough sounded, slap-thump, against her good block table. You didn’t tell me anything, I thought at her, smart enough, at least this time, not to say it aloud. We’d lived in the same house for sixteen years. She hadn’t had to tell me to not dare cross this doorstep until she invited me back in.

My sister turned, and her brown hair slid out of its messy twist. Marthe was pretty, when she wasn’t coiled with anger. And Marthe had been throwing grown men off our property since before I could walk. I bit down on a river of resentment, of curdled love. “There’s a man wanting hire.”

“Barley’s done,” she said, as if I hadn’t noticed.

“He’s a veteran,” I added, and watched her arms stutter: slap-trip-thump.

She untangled her fingers from the dough and peered out the kitchen window. “Not much to look at.” I winced. It was true: tall or not, he was thin to the ribs, a scarecrow with a beard like spilled ink and a nose that had definitely been broken.

“He said,” I added reluctantly, “he’s not passed anyone in weeks.”

Marthe’s hand grasped air; landed on the stewpot spoon. “What are you saying?”

I bit my lip. My sister was infuriating, condescending, endlessly moody, but—there were our fights and then there was this. “I want to take him on,” I said, and waited for the storm to break.

Her rounded cheeks paled; her mouth set into a thin, hard line. “Why?” she said finally, too controlled by far.

“For the poultry barn.” I swallowed. “With someone else around I could fix it and start the malting, and not worry about the woodpile or cleaning the goat pen or the fields, and then I could even get to dry-docking the boat and all the chores in town—”

The words ran out. Marthe stared at me with a compressed hurt that was worse than any rage. We’d lived in the same house for sixteen years. She could hear what I really meant: Because I’m not strong enough to keep this farm or this family alive while we pretend Thom’s coming home.

“I thought it might be good,” I whispered, “with the baby coming.”

Marthe’s hand drifted to her belly, dusting the old apron with flour. Unspoken words flitted across her face: linens, lifetimes, rations of small brown eggs, and it all added up to no, no, no.

“I know we can’t pay him,” I said quickly. “He just wants a place to be overwinter. Marthe, I have to. He’s barely got boots.”

“Charity, then?” she said, surprised: a flicker of the sister I knew—who saw me, who cared about me. Who still, sometimes, smiled.

It’s just he said, I thought wonderingly, that I was kind. “It’d get us through the winter,” I said. “And I’d want someone to, if it was—”

Marthe threw the wooden spoon clean across the kitchen. It clattered against the crockery shelf, smacked a blue clay mug, and rattled, dishes ringing, to the floor. The mug wobbled. I didn’t dare steady it. Marthe’s damp hair curtained down her cheek, over sheer, gutshot pain.

I swallowed.

Marthe stared at the spoon. Her right hand worked, and then she scrubbed it across her face as if she was very tired. “Put a pallet in the old smokehouse. At least with the stove he won’t freeze,” she said, and bowed her head over the squashed bread.

“All right,” I whispered, through the sudden roar of my own heartbeat. I shoved shaking hands into my pockets and went back outside.

The soldier stood at attention five feet off the porch, as wary of the line between the house’s shadow and the sun as I was of Marthe’s kitchen doorway. He didn’t even twitch: better at keeping a plain face, plain hands than I would ever be.

“You’re to have a pallet in the smokehouse,” I forced out. In a soot-stained junkyard we’d meant to clean out for six years. “My sister will give you spare linens.” My hands were still trembling. I’d won the argument, but Marthe’s grief, Marthe’s frustration

This didn’t feel like winning.

“It’s her farm?”

“Ours.” Papa’s snarl peaked, banked, and faded. “Our father willed it to the both of us.”

If he was surprised, he feigned well enough; he nodded and shouldered his brown leather pack. “Thank you, miss.”

“It’s Hallie,” I said. “My sister’s Marthe. From Roadstead Farm, in the lakelands.”

“Heron,” he offered, and tilted his head with something finer, deeper than lakeland manners.

“Heron, from the war,” I said bitterly.

His lips pressed shut for a moment. “From the war,” he agreed.

“So,” I asked, “did you see it?”

No reason to say what it was. The war was won when John Balsam, a man simple and small, lifted his dagger and cut out the Wicked God Southward’s dark heart. Tyler Blakely had carried the tale home three weeks past midsummer, limping on a leg once hale and thick, his eyes blasted pale with the sight of it. We’d already realized a change, though, here on the river: Birds not known on the riverbanks since Opa’s generation washed up dead and open-mouthed each sunrise. The stars rumbled nightly, too low and regular for thunder. Greta Chaudhry’s hives failed, and Berkhardt Mason’s orchards. By the time the Twisted Things staggered, wounded, through our fields, we couldn’t tell if the war was won or lost. Half our crops had burned at the touch of their acrid wings: a whole winter’s provisions gone up in noise and smoke. We shoveled their bodies into bonfires by night and prayed, among the cinders, for news.

We didn’t know what it meant, then. Those three weeks, we held our breaths.

“I didn’t see it,” my new hired man said softly, and closed his hand around his satchel strap. “I turned my face away.”

I opened my mouth. Shut it. I hadn’t expected a real answer, and now I didn’t know what to say. Not one lakelands man who went to battle with the Wicked God Southward would speak a word about how he fell, but they all saw it. You could tell it from their eyes: newly guarded, and dark as pits. They all saw.

The stranger’s own eyes had abruptly lost their kindness. They shuttered, chilly as river ice. They made me feel young, and ignorant, and small.

“I’ll show you where you’re bunking,” I said, unsettled, and wrapped my fingers in the dusty flannel of my shirtsleeve. There was more to a farm than a kindly face, and you still didn’t shake with hired men.