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Thursday, July 20, 2023

#Review - Blind Fear by Brandon Webb, John David Mann #Thrillers / #Suspense

Series: The Finn Thrillers  (#3)
Format: Hardcover, 416 pages
Release Date: July 11, 2023
Publisher: Bantam
Source: Publisher
Genre: Thrillers / Suspense

Haunted by the death of his best friend and hunted by the FBI for war crimes he didn’t commit, Finn lands on an island paradise that turns into his own personal hell in this gripping follow-up to Steel Fear and Cold Fear—from the New York Times bestselling writing team Webb & Mann . . .

By day, AWOL Navy SEAL Finn is hiding out on Vieques, a tiny island paradise off the eastern coast of Puerto Rico, living in a spare room behind a seafood restaurant owned by a blind local. By night he scours the dark web, hunting for the rogue officer responsible for the crimes he is accused of committing.

But Finn’s world is about to be turned upside down by a new nightmare, when his employer’s two grandchildren go missing. To find them, he’ll have to infiltrate the island’s dangerous criminal underbelly and expose a shadowy crime network known as La Empresa—even if it means exposing himself in the process.

As the children go on their own harrowing odyssey to stay one step ahead of a cop-turned-killer, a hurricane batters the coastline, cutting Puerto Rico off from the rest of the world. Taking his pursuit to the sea, Finn’s skills and endurance will be tested to their limits to rescue the lost children and escape his own pursuers before the clock runs out. No one is to be trusted. And those who are seemingly his friends might be the most dangerous foes he’s faced yet.



Blind Fear, by co-authors Brandon Webb & John David Mann, is the second installment in the Finn Thrillers series. Ever since Navy SEAL sniper Chief Finn left the USS Abraham Lincoln after being warned by his friend Carol to run, he's been a hunted man. Hunted because someone high up on the chain of command has put a target on his back as a war criminal who slaughtered a village in Yemen. His memories of that night are fuzzy, but he does know that neither he, or his team leader and friend Lieutenant Kennedy had nothing to do with a rogue element that actually did commit the atrocity. 
 
8 months ago, Finn fled Iceland and ended up in Vieques, Puerto Rico. By day, Finn lives in a spare room behind a seafood restaurant owned by a blind local named, Zacharias. By night he scours the dark web, hunting for the rogue officer responsible for the crimes he is accused of committing. But Finn’s world is about to be turned upside down by a new nightmare, when his employer’s two grandchildren (Pedro and Miranda) go missing. To find them, he’ll have to infiltrate the island’s dangerous criminal underbelly and expose a shadowy crime network known as La Empresa—even if it means exposing himself in the process.
 
As the children go on their own harrowing odyssey to stay one step ahead of a cop-turned-killer, a hurricane batters the coastline, cutting Puerto Rico off from the rest of the world. Finn's troubles get even more darker when former Abraham Lincoln pilot now Navy JAG officer, is hot on his tail, and she is like a bull dog searching for its bone. Taking his pursuit to the sea, Finn’s skills and endurance will be tested to their limits to rescue the lost children and escape his own pursuers before the clock runs out. No one is to be trusted. And those who are seemingly his friends might be the most dangerous foes he’s faced yet.
 
Thoughts: This story takes place entirely on the Islands of Puerto Rico, including places where the Navy used to test their bombs. Finn not only has to find two children who are trying to not only stay alive, but avoid being captured by criminals who are into drugs and human trafficking, and Monica and her partner who have orders to kill Finn on sight. The authors once again tempt readers with Finn's background which is not exactly warm and fuzzy. It's dark and sad. In all fairness, I would hope to see or meet the mysterious Carol who seems to know what is actually happening.


1

Nico Santiago had a dream. He envisioned a thriving, dazzling Puerto Rico, envy of the States, jewel of the Caribbean, a transformation people would be talking about a hundred years from now, a metamorphosis that all started with his beloved city—­San Juan, pride of the commonwealth.

Why not? Look what they’d done with New York City in the nineties. Clean up the street crime, purge the corruption. Lance the boil! Drain the infection!

Which meant taking down the Devil.

Yes, Nico was only one guy, a lowly homicide cop. But hey, every revolution started with some nobody who cared enough to act, right?

Which was why, at that moment, he was jumping over two toppled trash bins in the middle of the night, slipping on the grease-­covered garbage that spilled over the cobblestones, and falling on his ass in an alley in La Perla, the sketchiest neighborhood in the city.

“¡Mierda!”

Nico swore under his breath as he scrabbled to his feet and kept running. Down a set of crumbling cement steps, across a narrow cobblestone street, hopping a chain-­link fence, he ran on, straining to catch any scraps of sound beyond the slow pounding of the surf below and his own ragged breath.

There! A scuffle of footsteps, dead ahead.

Ha. The puta was heading for the shoreline—­as if the rocks and seawater could save him! Just like he’d thought he could shake Nico in the first place by trying to disappear down here into the city’s coastal underbelly.

La Perla: America’s oldest shantytown. A shunned strip, third of a mile long, jammed outside the city walls down on the rocky Atlantic shore. Built over the ruins of a slaughterhouse, abutting the city’s graveyard, original home of the homeless, the slaves, the non-­white servants. La Perla was everything Nico loved and hated about his homeland. The uncrushable spirit of its people. The legacy of oppression, poverty, and crime.

The place where they shot “Despacito,” the greatest music video ever made.

The one place in the city where, if you got into trouble at night, the police wouldn’t come for you.

But I’m coming for you now, puta. And you are in one shit-­pile of trouble, aren’t you?

He heard the man’s feet hit the cement boardwalk and go bolting off to the east. Nico followed, sprinting full-­out . . . three hundred feet . . . five hundred feet . . . 

He should have called his partner, shouldn’t be out here on his own, shouldn’t have been stalking this pendejo by himself. His superior officers had nixed the stakeout, nixed the whole investigation, in fact. Too hot, they said. Not worth the risk.

But it was worth the risk. Nico knew this in his gut. Nail this one guy and he could crack open the whole pineapple. Unmask the Devil himself and end this horrific reign of terror. He wouldn’t risk his partner’s badge, but he was fine with risking his own. So he’d laid the trap all by himself—­and he’d caught a rat.

A thousand feet . . . 

Only he’d gotten just a shave too close and spooked the mamabicha.

At the end of the strip, where it landed at the foot of the old stone castle that marked La Perla’s eastern terminus, his quarry took a hard right, darting back into the tangle of shacks, a rabbit making a desperate dash for safety in the heart of his warren.

Nico didn’t bother shouting Stop! or Police! or You’re under arrest! Didn’t waste his breath. Just took off after him.

And then everything went silent.

He skidded to a halt at the mouth of another narrow alleyway. Heard no fleeing footsteps, no scrambling over cobblestones. Only a dog barking and the distant curses of locals rousted from a hungover sleep.

The fine hairs on Nico’s arms stood at attention.

He had to assume the man had a gun.

These days it seemed like everyone in Puerto Rico had a gun.

He couldn’t see far enough into the alley to locate the man, was pretty sure the man couldn’t see him, either. But they were both there, still and silent, each trying to get the drop on the other.

There was no nearby exit up through the city wall. The man was cornered.

But so, for all practical purposes, was Nico.

Suddenly Nico felt an irrational chill shiver through him.

Behind him, far above in the dark, stood an old castle guard sentry-­box. According to superstition, every guard who entered there would mysteriously vanish, never to be seen again. La Garita del Diablo, they called it. The Devil’s Tower.

Focus, Nico.

He drew out his sidearm, took a few steadying breaths, and crouched down low to crawl his way into the alley, listening as hard as he could, straining to catch any telltale sounds of breath or movement from the other man, hearing nothing.

He began to crawl.

An endless minute ticked by. Then another.

A quarter of the way through.

Inch by agonizing inch.

Three minutes.

Halfway through.

And then a deep voice boomed out from the far end of the alley, shattering the silence.

“¡Quieto, cabrón!” Freeze, asshole!

Nico let out a harsh, ragged breath and felt his shoulders relax.

Caleb. His partner.

He almost laughed. No jodas . . . Caleb! That rum-­smooth, James Earl Jones voice, the reason they called him “Calypso.” Nico could pick that voice out of a crowd in the middle of a hurricane.

Gracias a Dios.

He took another hard breath and straightened from his crouch, letting the tension drain from his back muscles as the adrenaline flood receded, leaving behind its wreckage of ravaged nerve endings.

He had no idea how Cal had known he was here, why he was out here in the middle of the night when he ought to be home in bed or out drinking like any sane off-­duty cop.

Didn’t know, didn’t care. He was just grateful his partner had showed. The chase was over. They were actually arresting this piece of shit, this stain of corruption—­and with what this one guy knew, they could bring down the whole house of cards. His investigation was about to be vindicated. Puerto Rico, his homeland, would be cleansed of this plague, given a fresh start.

This night would change their lives, forever.

We did it, Lucy. We really did it.

He walked toward the end of the alley, where a shaft of moonlight revealed the enormous figure of Cal, feet spread apart, gun held out in a two-­handed stance. The man Nico had been pursuing now knelt on the filthy alleyway floor, hands clasped behind his head.

Nico smiled.

“That’s no ordinary asshole,” he called out as he approached. “That particular asshole is deputy director of AP.” Autoridad de los Puertos: Ports Authority. In charge of all seaports in Puerto Rico. “That particular asshole runs the docks. And also happens to work for the Devil. A direct report, Cal! Ave María purísma, a direct report!”

Cal threw him a quick glance, eyebrows raised.

“This puta can ID the son of a bitch!” Nico added, just to make the point abundantly clear. He’d been right all along. His stakeout had paid off. They were about to bring down the Devil.

Cal looked down at the kneeling man. “That true?”

The man said nothing.

Cal nodded, impressed. “Damn.” He looked back at Nico. “Nice work. Stellar.”

Nico grinned and put up his palm for a high five.

Cal raised his weapon and shot Nico point-­blank in the face.

“¡Jesús!” The kneeling man nearly fell over. He stared up at Cal, his eyes wide as silver dollars. Then his face relaxed. He let out a rush of breath and broke into a grin.

“Gracias, compadre.”

He got to his feet, shakily, brushing the filth off his knees. Grinned up at the big man.

“De nada,” said Cal, and he plugged the man between the eyes.

The second pistol shot reverberated through the dark streets and died away in the surf.

Cal waited.

Listened.

Nobody came.

He holstered his 9mm. Reached into a back trouser pocket, withdrew a handkerchief, and wiped his face with it. Held it out and looked at it without expression. In the faint moonlight the smear of Nico’s blood looked black.

He pocketed the cloth, then reached into an inside jacket pocket and slipped out a small leather case, the grain worn smooth. Zipped it open. A glint of moonlight flashed off the stainless steel.

One by one, he began removing his precision tools.




Friday, June 17, 2022

#Review - Cold Fear by Brandon Webb, John David Mann #Thrillers #Suspense

Series: Finn Thrillers # 2
Format: Hardcover, 432 pages
Release Date: June 7, 2022
Publisher: Bantam
Source: Publisher
Genre: Thrillers / Suspense

Finn’s search for his memory of one fateful night leads him to Iceland—only to be followed by an unhinged assassin intent on stopping him—in the riveting follow-up to Steel Fear, from the New York Times bestselling writing team Webb & Mann, combat decorated Navy SEAL Brandon Webb and award-winning author John David Mann.

Disgraced Navy SEAL Finn is on the run. A wanted man since he jumped ship from the USS Abraham Lincoln, he’s sought for questioning in connection to war crimes committed in Yemen by a rogue element in his SEAL team. But his memory of that night—as well as the true fate of his mentor and only friend, Lieutenant Kennedy—is a gaping hole.
 
Finn learns that three members of his team have been quietly redeployed to Iceland, which is a puzzle in itself; the tiny island nation is famous for being one of the most peaceful, crime-free places on the planet.
 
His mission is simple: track down the three corrupt SEALs and find out what really happened that night in Yemen. But two problems stand in his way. On his first night in town a young woman mysteriously drowns—and a local detective suspects his involvement. What’s worse, a SEAL-turned-contract-killer with skills equal to his own has been hired to make sure he never gets the answers he’s looking for. And he’s followed Finn all the way to the icy north.



Cold Fear, by authors Brandon Webb, John David Mann, is the second installment in the authors Finn Thrillers series. Navy SEAL sniper Finn searches for the truth after he can loses his memory of what happened during a mission gone horribly wrong in Yemen. Finn, whose memories of an atrocity that was committed by his own Black Squadron team, has gone AWOL (Absent Without Leave) and is now a fugitive. He escaped certain death in San Diego, and made his way to Iceland where he hopes he can find answers.
 
Four months after the night in Yemen, Finn is still trying to remember what happened and whether he is guilty of the crime. Someone thinks he is which is. He seeks answers from three members of his former team who have been deployed to Iceland. Finn's memories are so clouded in mystery, that he has no clue what the truth is, and what may be a figment of his own imagination. His mission is simple: track down the three corrupt SEALs and find out what really happened that night in Yemen. 
 
But two problems stand in his way. On his first night in town, a young woman nicknamed Little Mermaid mysteriously drowns and a local detective suspects his involvement. What’s worse, a SEAL-turned-contract-killer with skills equal to his own has been hired to make sure he never gets the answers he’s looking for. And he’s followed Finn all the way to the icy north. Finn figures that he has 3 days to map, locate and track members of his team before his hunter tracks him down. When Finn wants to, he remembers every single detail which makes him a superb sniper. 
 
Finn needs to know what really happened. He needs to know if he was responsible in anyway. He needs to know why his Commanding officer Lieutenant Kennedy was killed after promising to find answers. Finn knows that he is quarry now and that there are people in high places who have tried to silence him from asking too many questions and will likely try again. Which brings us to Senior Detective Krista Kritjansdoffier who is in the search for answers to why a young woman called little mermaid was stripped naked with writing on her stomach. 
 
The young woman was allegedly training to be an au pair in places like New York City before she was found in a lake. Krista crosses paths with Finn after it seems as though he may have the answers she needs to solve a slew of crimes. Krista believes Finn knows more than he is saying, and when more bodies start piling up, Krista would love nothing more to arrest Finn, and lock him away for life. When brutal murders began to occur in the peaceful and basically crime-free city, the police force went on high alert, with the lead detective mostly flying solo, determined to find answers to the death of the young girl, as well as the other killings.
 
Which brings me to Boone. Boone is a psychopath who is also hunting Finn's team in order to shut them up from telling what happened in Yemen and who was to blame. But his biggest target is Finn who he missed when the Lincoln made port in San Diego. Thanks to Finn getting a warning from a colleague that trouble was waiting for him, he was able to sneak away. Boone does some things in this book that may be troubling for certain readers, but he's probably the most worthy villain that Finn will face in the near future.
 
Readers need to get past the fact that Finn's memory is faulty thus an unreliable narrator at times. Several traumatic events have caused his mind to block out happenings from his youth and from the day atrocities were committed in Yemen. Although a whole lot of questions have been answered, the authors fail to reveal to the readers who was actually responsible for the order that led to a massacre in Yemen and Finn being blamed. 
 
You don't have to read Steal Fear to enjoy this one since the author does a good job of reminding you of past events. I do believe that you will want to read the next installment to see if the authors will lay the actual truth out of what really happened.


Prologue

A deserted city street. The distant ruckus of drunken revelers, laughter, Christmas carol fragments. Under the faint glow of streetlights a flurry of snowflakes drifts to the frigid cobblestone surface, then swirls aside as a girl sprints past.

Bare feet. No coat. Mid-twenties.

She darts through an intersection. Then another. Street names she can’t pronounce. On a wild guess she takes a left at the next corner and runs another block before stopping, bent over, hands on knees, breathing like a trapped animal.

There’s nothing but the silence of the snow and her own rapid panting. She looks around, frantic.

Has she gone too far?

Takes off running again. Squinting at the street signs, pleading for them to make sense. Fighting back the urge to stop and scan the darkness behind her.

The sound of her feet slapping the slick street surface drums against her ears . . . images explode through her mind—the mines . . . the Englishman . . . the lake house—

She pushes them away. Her feet are bleeding, but she has to keep going. She has to—

Wait.

Was that a glimpse of someone passing on the far side of the street?

She slows long enough to peer back through the murk. No one there.

She spat out the last pill, but the drugs are still too strong. She can’t tell what is hallucination and what is real.

Keep going.

Her feet slapping the cobblestones . . . the mines . . . the Englishman . . .

She won’t make it. It was a crazy idea. Should have known it was pointless to try. She reaches the next corner—

And there it is. Spread out before her like a banquet.

She stops again, hands on knees, gasping, the Arctic air searing her lungs. Squints into the dark and feels a rush of bitter relief. Not a hallucination. Really there.

A patch of open water.

The driver told her about this the day she arrived. In December the pond is covered in ice, he said, ice so thick they hold hockey matches on it. Except right here, at this spot. The city keeps this northeast corner heated year-round. “For the ducks!” he chortled.

And sure enough, through the gloom she can see their little bodies, tucked into themselves for warmth, still and silent. Living, breathing ducks, asleep on the water.

How do they survive the winters here?

How does anyone survive the winters here?

She whips her head around, suddenly alert, eyes and ears straining in the dark. There’s no one behind her. The only sounds she hears are her own hard breath and the faint splish-splash as she steps into the shallow.

From her pocket she pulls a stick of lipstick, blood-red.

Stares at it, her heart pounding.

She isn’t supposed to know.

Isn’t supposed to know about any of it.

But she does.

Hands trembling from the cold, she twists the lipstick open, pulls up her shirt with one hand and with the other scrawls a single word upside-down across her abdomen.

Then lets the lipstick fall from her fingers.

She strips out of her clothes, tossing each item behind her. Stark naked, she takes a few more steps into the water. Another flurry of snowflakes falls around her, the air a blast freezer on her skin. Teeth chattering, she kneels. Places her palms down against the shallow pond floor. Slides down onto her stomach and pushes herself away from the edge with her feet, propelling with her arms, each stroke drawing her further toward the pond’s center. After a moment her outstretched fingers find the lip of the ice sheet.

She slips underneath the ice, then twists around so that her back is to the pond floor, her face to the ice above. Stretches out her arms as wide as she can.

And pushes farther in.




Friday, July 16, 2021

#Review - Steel Fear by Brandon Webb, John David Mann #Thrillers #Suspense

Series: Finn Thrillers # 1
Format: Hardcover, 464 pages
Release Date: July 13, 2021
Publisher: Bantam
Source: Publisher
Genre: Thrillers / Suspense

An aircraft carrier adrift with a crew the size of a small town. A killer in their midst. And the disgraced Navy SEAL who must track him down…The high-octane debut thriller from New York Times bestselling writing team Webb & Mann—combat-decorated Navy SEAL Brandon Webb and award-winning author John David Mann.

The moment Navy SEAL sniper Finn sets foot on the USS Abraham Lincoln to hitch a ride home from the Persian Gulf, it’s clear something is deeply wrong. Leadership is weak. Morale is low. And when crew members start disappearing one by one, what at first seems like a random string of suicides soon reveals something far more sinister at work: there’s a serial killer on board. Suspicion falls on Finn, the newcomer to the ship. After all, he’s being sent home in disgrace, recalled from the field under the dark cloud of a mission gone horribly wrong. He’s also a lone wolf, haunted by gaps in his memory and the elusive sense that something he missed may have contributed to civilian deaths on his last assignment. Finding the killer offers a chance at redemption…if he can stay alive long enough to prove it isn’t Finn himself.

Story Locale: Middle of the Pacific Ocean


Steel Fear is the first installment in what is being called the Finn Thrillers by co-authors Brandon Webb, and John David Mann. Collaboration between Webb and Mann began with the NY Times Bestselling memoir, The Red Circle (St. Martin’s, 2009), followed by a string of commercially successful, internationally published nonfiction projects. A former Navy SEAL who was also a search and rescue swimmer, Brandon Webb is regularly featured in international media as a military and Special Operations subject matter expert. 

Webb did two tours on an aircraft carrier. He claims that during his deployment, there was a rash of petty crimes with which the crew was ill-equipped to deal with. Brandon couldn’t help but wonder, “What if these crimes were really murders?” The result, after twenty-five years, is this “locked room,” authentically detailed mystery. The story takes place onboard the USS Abraham Lincoln (CVN72) from the Persian Gulf steaming towards Hawaii. There are several key players in this book. 

Chief Finn is a Navy SEAL from the Black Squadron being sent back to the United States via the Lincoln on ‘special assignment’ which can mean debrief, disgrace, or worse. Finn's memories of the last night with the Black Squadron is unreliable at best. With his SAT phone broken, and his CO out of radio contact, and his girlfriend telling him to RUN!, Finn is on his own. However, once Finn is aboard, he decides to do some reconnaissance. He talks to the crew. He draws pictures of the crew and the ship, and he notices that morale is low due to no leave and months at sea. 

Then, crew members begin disappearing. Is it suicide or something much worse? With 6,000 men and women onboard the Lincoln, any number of them could be killers. Finn is an elite sniper who tends to notice things that nobody else does. But he seems to inexplicably blank out at the most inopportune times. Finn is a quirky, and flawed anti-hero, haunted by a traumatic childhood, and somewhat of a recluse is quite intelligent and calculating with a highly deductive mindset and certainly belongs to this elite group. Sometimes it takes an anti-hero to catch a killer.

Monica Halsey is a pilot/maintenance officer of a Knighthawk Helicopter squadron. Halsey has been trying to get the respect she has earned but continues to face personal challenges from her immediate CO Papa Doc aka Nikos Papadakis who is something of a serial harasser. After her roommate is listed as suicide, Halsey finds herself seeking help from Finn whose very presence onboard the ship, has caused rumors and thoughts that he's responsible for things that happen on the ship.

Command Master Chief Robbie Jackson is in charge of ensuring the health, warfare, and moral of the crew. But after 8 months at sea, no leave or port calls, a Helo that crashed into the ocean with no survivors, and an apparent serial killer onboard, Jackson needs all the help he can get. With a CO who is as worthless as they come, and taking zero responsibility for the crew's depression and misery, Jackson calls in his own investigation into the sudden deaths of his crew-members. What he finds is that there may or may not be a connection between Finn's arrival onboard and the alleged suicides. Could Finn really be a mass murderer?

What makes this book work is the short chapters and the fact that the author knows about how carriers are set up. Even though the book is over 400 pages long, I was able to easily flip through the pages and remain focused on what is happening in the story. Also, I take detailed notes when I read which include each of the main characters, and their reason of importance. As I am sure you are aware, I served 4 years in the US Navy. I can tell you honestly that I would have never agreed to serve onboard a ship with 6,000 people onboard. 

In the story itself, Monica mentions some key females that inspired her. From Kara S. Hultgreen who was the first official female to fly off a carrier, to Sally Ride who was the first US female in space. A Historical footnote: Abraham Lincoln was to be the first Pacific Fleet carrier to integrate female aviators into the crew after the Combat Exclusion Laws were lifted on 28 April 1993. 




1

Shivers rippled over Monica Halsey’s naked skin as she peered into the steel mirror and splashed water on her face. Monica needed to be on her game tonight. She was close to earning her helicopter aircraft commander qualification, and tonight’s hop was a critical step in that process.

Because Papa Doc was flying with her.

She shivered again. Lord, why did they keep the AC up so high in this place? She pulled on a red­—
squadron colors­—then fished out a tan flight suit, stepped into the legs, pulled up the suit, and slipped her arms into the sleeves.

His name wasn’t really Papa Doc, of course, it was Nikos Papadakis, and he was a control freak and a bully. Which was unfortunate, because he was also her commanding officer.

Papa Doc didn’t like her. She didn’t know why. Some security issue, probably; his daddy hit him or the big kids teased him or Lord knew what, but whatever the reason, it was a problem, because he held the keys to the kingdom­—the kingdom in this case being Monica’s HAC qual.

Which Papa Doc had the power to quash.

She zipped her flight suit up the front to mid-sternum, rolled up the sleeves to mid-forearm.

Focused on her HAC, and on what lay beyond that.

A tour at the Pentagon, some high-sprofile posting, maybe an admiral’s aide? Tough job to get, and well worth it. If she did an excellent job there (and she would) she’d have people in high places looking out for her. Proceed to O-5, commander, and then O-6: the promised land. As a captain all sorts of posts would open up to her. Command of a ship. A cruiser. Even a carrier. Why not? And after captain came admiral. There’d been plenty of female admirals in the navy by now, even one full-ranked female four-star. The admiral of their own strike group was a woman. Not impossible at all.

Eyes on the prize.

The most important event shaping Monica’s life occurred ten years before she was born. In 1983 a thirty-two-year-old astronaut named Sally Ride flew the space shuttle Challenger and became the first American woman in space. On a third-grade school trip to the Houston Space Center Monica learned all about Sally Ride, learned that girls could actually become astronauts, and at the age of eight she fell in love. From that day on she wanted to fly more than anything in the world.

She bent down, slipped on her brown oxfords, and began lacing them tight.

In junior high she learned about Kara Hultgreen, the first female navy combat aviator, and her ambition shifted from astronaut to fighter pilot. She also learned that the USS Abraham Lincoln became the first Pacific Fleet carrier to integrate female aviators into its crew in 1993, the year Monica was born. It was on the Lincoln’s flight deck that Hultgreen flew her F-14 Tomcat.

Monica looked again at her reflection in the polished steel. “And here we are,” she whispered.

The USS Abraham freaking Lincoln.

She glanced around the dimly lit stateroom. Anne, one of her roommates, lay back on her rack, headphones on, murmuring incomprehensible phrases. Anne was sucking another foreign language (Mandarin, this time) into her voracious brain. Kris was on flight duty, gunning her F/A-18 somewhere up there through the Mesopotamian murk. The fourth rack, the one above Anne’s, was empty now. Monica forced herself not to look at it. The sight still put a knot in her stomach.

She reached for her toothbrush and squeezed on a pearl of toothpaste.

She’d learned a few more things in junior high, too. She learned about something called the “Tailhook scandal”: eighty-three navy women assaulted or sexually harassed. (That one happened two years before she was born.) That in 1994 Kara Hultgreen also became the first navy female aviator to die, right off the Lincoln’s flight deck­—and that the crash that killed her was blamed on “improprieties” in qualifying her for flight status, “given her gender.”

For Flying While Female, in other words.

And Sally Ride? In a press conference just before that historic first flight in ’83, reporters asked her if space flight would “affect her reproductive organs” and whether she cried when things went wrong on the job.

“Shit fire and save the matches,” was Gram’s comment when Monica told her about it.

Monica was fifteen when she read about that humiliating press conference, and that was the day she formulated the guiding philosophy she’d held to ever since.

Never back down.

She looked in the mirror, gave her hair a few quick brushstrokes, and snapped everything into place with a hair tie.

Ready for battle.

 

2

She opened the stateroom door, ducked her head, and began threading her way through the labyrinth. The nighttime safety lights provided her just enough illumination to see her way, their faint red glow giving the painted steel passageways an even more claustrophobic feel than usual. A lattice of wires, exposed pipes, and conduit brushed by overhead, like strands of web in a giant spider’s lair.

Eerie how quiet it got in here at night.

If you put all the ship’s passageways end to end, Monica’d heard, they would stretch out more than twenty miles. She’d asked her crew chief once just how big a carrier was. He told her about two brothers he knew who’d deployed at the same time on the same ship. From the day they left port to the day they returned seven months later the two never once bumped into each other. “That’s how big,” he said.

More than three thousand ship’s crew, plus nearly three thousand more with the air wing on board: some six thousand souls packed into this steel honeycomb. Like a small city folded in on itself. She’d heard of crew members getting lost even after weeks on board.

Monica never lost her way, not once.

Though she did crack her head a lot those first few weeks.

As she ducked through another doorway Monica thought again­—for the thousandth time­—of the inconvenience her height saddled her with here on the Lincoln. It was like living in a hobbit shire, only this particular hobbit shire was interlaced with a thousand narrow, nearly vertical steel staircases­—“ladders,” in Navyspeak, never “stairs”­—and punctuated by compact, capsule-shaped doorways with openings raised a few inches off the deck, so you had to remember to high-step through. Look down to make sure you cleared the edge and SLAM! Another whack to the head.

She ducked again, then on through a few more doors, down two steep, narrow ladders, and into her squadron’s ready room for a cup of hot Black Falcon coffee. Best coffee on the ship.

Quick op brief, then into the riggers’ loft, where she and the other crew donned their inflatable vests­—“float coats”­—and white flight helmets.

Moments later she was out in the labyrinth again with Papa Doc and two other crew members. Up another steep ladder and through a heavy hatch to the outside­—where they all paused, momentarily immobilized by the blast of saturated heat.

Even at night the Persian Gulf was sweltering.

The four stood for a moment on the steel catwalk, eyes adjusting to the darkness as their bodies adapted to the heat. Looking down between her feet into the darkness, Monica could hear the ocean rushing by five stories below. Sailors who jumped from here with suicide on their minds might hope to drown, but only those few sorry souls who survived the fall got their wish.

She followed the others up the five steel steps and out onto the Lincoln’s massive flight deck, where every day was the Fourth of July.

WHAM! She was expecting it, but still the sound made her jump. A hundred yards from where Monica stood one of the flight deck’s steam catapults slammed against its stock, sending a fighter jet screaming off the bow end of the deck and into the air with a whoosh and disappearing into the dark.

CRASH! A second jet pounded into the deck’s stern to her right, its tailhook snagging one of the four arresting wires strung across the deck like booby traps. The cable shrieked as it stretched out into an elongated V, slowing the jet from 150 mph to zero in a two-count to stop it from careening off the deck’s angled landing strip.

Goggled and green-jerseyed handlers rushed forward to chock and chain the beast. Monica knew them all by their gait and gestures, had each one’s physical signature memorized. Her crew’s lives depended on these guys.

WHAM! Another cat shot, and whoosh! another jet disappeared into the dark.

CRASH! Another 25-ton beast pounded into the deck.

Insanity.